HOME (another moment)

She sits on the chair in the dining room, her husband in a "rock and go" wheel chair, seated at her right.  I can't help but notice them together, when I first met him she was still in the hospital.  His face is gentle and he carries a gentle spirit inside the body that doesn't move.  His lips perfectly cover a voice that has somehow been silenced... all around them is the sound of love, a gentle whisper beckons  me to go by them.
As I sit down and talk with her, she tells me he hasn't eaten in days...
"how can he do it, how can a body survive with no food?"
Taking the spoon I try to coax down some fortified oatmeal, but it does not go down and I wipe it away with a napkin.
I tell her..."he seems to have a wonderful spirit about him, a peace surrounds him and I can feel his happiness"
The words now spill out of her smiling face as she tells me about the man she married some 67 years ago.  He was a wonderful father and such a good, good man.  No one could have had a happier life than them... she had it all and is so thankful.  Listening to her words carefully, I hold on to each one knowing I am in a Holy moment... knowing she is sharing a rare jewel with me.
The next morning when I check on them, the rock and go is parked next to the twin bed he lays on and except for the heaving of his breath he is silent.  I listen carefully for the sound of love, she touches my arm and is smiling.  I do not know these people and yet I know there is a connection way beyond my understanding...
and as I leave the room I hear the brush of angels wings...
coming to take him home.

This story is fictional, if it sounds like someone you know... wonderful, that means you know someone who truly knows Gods love and how to live it out here on earth!

FUN!

I want to remember this moment forever.  Jaci, Conner, Chloe, Nola and I were out for a walk when the park was spotted.  How can a gramma say no on a perfect, very fine, beautiful day.
Jaci and Conner were crawling like monkeys on the bars when we noticed Nola Jean.
She had found the exact center of this monkey bar cage...
Stood there, smiled at us
and started hopping and singing...
"gramma, look, gramma, this is fun, fun gramma, fun gramma"
and I do indeed say in my gramma's mind...
that we had
FUN!!

Conzins

Today I write so I don't forget. Living in the moment isn't always the easiest...
sometimes each moment is so wonderful you don't want to move on to fast.
I drive to Howard Lake to meet my oldest daughter and her family.  Leaving in time to meet at "Troubles" at 6:00.
They are here! It is 6:30 and the food is ready to go.
We eat
Load the car...
my precious cargo includes JaciAnna  (8) and Jordyn Noel (1 1/2), some clothes, a new school bag, a soccer ball and then of course -
we need the net that goes with the soccer ball.
Chris bungee's the trunk shut and away we go. It is Sunday July 30th, 2012.
When we arrive in Arlington, they take a bath and put the pj's on.  I lay Jordyn down in Ann's room in her pack and play, with Jaci laying next to me in my room.  Within 5 minuets everyone is sleeping.
Grams comes in the morning so I can go to work, Allysa came about 10:30 to help with the tasks at hand, Lacey and Nola Jean arrive around 3:00.  We have supper, Lacey goes to the Chiro.  When she gets back I have all the conzins ready to go swimming.
OFF WE GO...
To the Glencoe city pool.  Me, Lila, Lacey, Nola Jean, Jaci Anna and Jordyn Noel.  Everyone has a wonderful time, it is worth the $28 to me to see the conzins play together.
To see Jaci so gently help the little ones on the slide...
to see her let them follow her all around the shallow end of the pool...
and her patience when I tell her she can't go in the "big" side until the little ones are done.  I see a side of my first born grandchild I have not seen before...
she is maturing...
she is a big sister...
she is a conzin!
Nola Jean and Lacey leave for home on Tuesday. When I get home from work we load up Jaci and Jordyn and head down the road yet again.  This time they will go with momma and Conner D. will come home with us.  I go to work and Gramma D. along with Alyssa play with Conner and make sure his time with gramma is fun. 
Today it is Friday August 3rd... I took off and we go out to the grounds to meet up with Carol and Duane, Nick, Heather, Addy, Emily, Jaci and Jordyn.  It was very hot, but that never stops us from having fun.  We saw animals, smelled hay, went on a few rides...
and then to the Arlington Haus for supper.
Okay...
it has been along day = time for bed, Brittany will be coming with Jack on Saturday so we can hold him and love on him a little.  The girls all meet up with Starla at the Arlington haus, they laughed and learned a new word - SKUNNED.  It is yet to be determined if that is in the dictionary.
Okay...
Carol, Miranda, Evelyn, Lindsey, Emi, Lacey, K., Robin, Al, Curt, Brittany, Dillan and Jack are here and it is a wonderful time of family and friends and of course a little food sitting out through out the day.
Okay...
I get ready to go to the grand, Emi takes Jaci, Lila and Conner to the movie "Ice Age Two", Lindsey left about 3:00.  Everyone else left about 9:00pm.  What a beautiful day
Okay...
I come home from the grand that had some excellent music.  Clean up the house and head to bed! Everyone is sleeping and grams and I serve at church coffee on Sunday.
Okay...
So we get up and ready to go to church, Jaci comes with to help us serve.  We make a little dinner upon arrival home and then head out to the fair for a little while again. Gramps comes out also and we just sit and enjoy the weather, the company, the love of family.
And now...
They are all gone
My house is quiet
and inside my heart I can hear the whole week-end

and I give Thanks.

THE PATH

And when I get to Heaven I believe that all will be right with my soul.
I believe that after he rides off he will be waiting for me in the car he never could
drive,
replacing the slow gallop with a surge on the gas...
telling me to "get in", he's been there all along...
He will be in one of those old cars that used to be in the woods,
the radio duck taped to the dash will be working,
playing songs in slow motion, Led Zeplin praising the Lord.
He will let down the sun roof and we will drive
to that place where Heaven meets earth
handicaps are healed
pain is gone
questions are answered
and His voice will talk to my heart
"FOLLOW ME"

DANCE

Because sometimes you just can't help yourself...
you stop
let the wind blow through
your
heart
and dance....

The fluid color of blue

She sits at her spinning wheel, slowly feeding the yarn with her hands.  The wool is new and just dyed into beautiful pastel colors that melt in your eyes, the fluid color of blue mainstreaming the flow.  Gently the thread feeds into a ball that is controlled by her foot.  Smoothly the wool is being pulled into the wheel, slowly so as it won't bunch.
It seems that suddenly there is a  tear and she needs to pull back and add more so it will again be an even strand.
Again it is smooth,
a knot stops the wheel from turning and she stops.  It seems her hands can not unravel the mess that has been made.
She looks up to the Heavens and prays to the God of all Glory, all wonder, the Savior...
He hears her but know that she needs to slow down...
"slow down your moving to fast...
I can not unravel the mess, if you won't let me."
The wheel stops, she bows her head and stills her foot... lifting her voice she gives thanks to this Alpha, the Omega... she looks at the beautiful ball of yarn she has so far -
it is huge and the blue as a back drop could not have been a more perfect color.  As if by force she wills herself to touch the wool not yet spun - she slowly unravels the mess and her foot starts moving slowly to the music in her mind... feeling a warmth over her hands she
continues the process...
How did He know?

Life Eternal

Through the generations you feel the hand of time.  It gently starts you in life and carry's you through.                                                                                                                                                     I see her as a young lady touching the new born skin of her baby, holding her hands as the tiny fingers fold around hers. She is holding on for all that there is in this life.  As a mother she will see this tiny life grow and learn and before you know it her little one is gone, a grown young lady with babes of her own...
then she fills her life with love and gives all she can...
and now her babes are grown...
and there she is holding onto the next generation...
celebrating the distance of years between them
... feeling the hand of time
knowing that she is in the presence of the Almighty God.

And she remembers His promise of eternal life
... she knows that this is only the beginning
and yet she feels the memories of years gone by.

Her hand touches the face of God as she looks in the eyes of His child.